Monday, November 24, 2008

As If We Couldn't See This Coming...

So remember how in my last entry I mentioned how I was once again having an identity crisis? Yup. Yesterday I did what I swore I wouldn't do this year-I applied to choreograph the musical for next term. Whether I'll get the position or not is another issue entirely, but that's not the point. The one simplistic truth about my life that I've been trying to wrap my head around for the last 2 1/2 years finally clicked on like a lightbulb-whichever career I end up choosing, dance or academics, I will regret not having made the other one. And I'm not willing to settle for either one as just a hobby. So how does one manage that? If I don't pursue professional choreography, I'll be miserable. If I don't get my PhD and get the opportunity to teach college and write academic treatises, I'll be miserable. So what do you all think? Is life long enough for 2 simultaneous careers? It doesn't really appear to be, but maybe it is. I don't know whether I'm asking for advice or comfort or just for someone to tell me I'm not crazy. I guess the only thing to do for now is to raise our metaphoric glasses to the quarter-life crisis...

1 comment:

Jake Kim said...

Get a bloody PhD in choreography and teach in art college. It's as simple as that when it's someone else's problem. Oh, wait... there's a subtle time difference between foci of each. Medival choreography, then? Reconstructing how people danced in the Middle Ages? Ehem...